Wednesday, September 6, 2006

Where is the Manuel?

Why does life not come with a manual and why do i feel like EVERYONE i know is running around with their head on sideways? We all pretend to know what the truth is, what the best choices are, but we're all just guessing. And NO ONE knows.
I'm guessing, and right now i'm as confused as....the elephant man in space? A dog in a cats body? You feel me. I'm single again, and yea i know that was out of left field, but i really needed it.  I'm trying to stay away from the person i've been crushing, as too not get sucked in to the rebound effect.....i'm really really bad at that.
and on love, EVERYONE is getting married. Did i miss a memo? Is it really time for us to grow up and do all this shit? And i try to be a supportive a possible. But when most people tell me my thought process runs something like this:
1. thinkin "hmm ok la, smile"---saying--OMG CONGRATS
2. thinkin "DO you know the divorce rate right now?"-saying---did you pick a date?
3. thinking "I'll be out of law school in 4, if you need a divorce lawyer "saying--i'll be out of law school in 4 if you need a divorce lawyer
4. Thinking if you love someone that much, you DON"T need some paper telling you that your love is legit saying---NOTHING
5. Thinking Man, i would be married to Cat right now if we'd stayed together....thank G-d i'm not Doing--holding back from puking
My house in MD got flooded so i Don't know if i can move PLUS offered me a job in Atlanta but yea.....
I'm not suicidal in anyway but man i wish i could get to cloud 10 and float away, land on the south Isle of New Zealand, and wait for her there (in like 50 years)
or i wish life came with a manual